I’m a shadow of who I used to be online. This does not usually bug me. But right now I am reaching out trying to find new people, a new tribe. Not all of the old ones do I want to let go of, but I have let go of many.
The Internet won’t bring me the new ones. I need to find my new circles, but I am not sure where they are drawn. So in the empty stillness where the spaces are waiting, I realize how far I have left people that I didn’t want to leave, merely by moving away in space. But I am not sure I can even get back to them anymore. The distance does not make it meaningless…but the connections would only be blips, not eyes looking into eyes. Right now I need eyes and faces.