Random things

No particular order or importance.

1. 2 things I learned since having a kid: Sun butter sandwiches are just delicious! (Sun butter is like peanut butter but made from sunflower seeds.)
Also, life is too short to eat anything other than whole milk yogurt (in moderation). What a simple luxury.

2. I Wish my house was all decorated like my massage-therapists business location. So soothing. Not really practical in all rooms, but maybe in some. I dunno.

3. Fall is coming. We have so few fall decorations, but I had better get them out.

That’s it. Super short. But something. Have anything to add to my numbered list? =)

Domestic bliss.

Life is pretty good around here  right now.

Tonight, after Derek goes to sleep, I am going to make this. to eat for dessert tomorrow. I am so busy these days, I don’t cook much to enjoy the process, it’s mostly about a scratch dinner that is also quick to do with a toddler underfoot. So tonight, once he is asleep, I’ll work on this recipe.
DLJ works late every Wed. He goes in right after lunch, and comes home late at night. I really have come to enjoy this arrangement. I get him at home for half a day, once a week. He gets time to work on his projects at work when no one is bugging him during working hours to do something else. I get my “alone” time every week to do what I please, be it work, or just reading, or, like tonight, mindful cooking. The days are getting easier, Derek as a toddler is a challenge, of course, but he is not 100% needing me every moment anymore. I get little breathers here and there to type, or do a quick cleaning chore, or just a moment or two to look out the window and think. It’s nice to finally be here…where my world opens up again.
We are in the middle of a lot of little house projects. Repainting the kitchen and some trim needs to be done, and we selected the color, at least. A back wall in the garden needs to be put back in. Those are the two projects I have for the spring/summer. Part of me wishes for a newer house that doesn’t need as much upkeep as ours. And if I had to do it over, I’d stay strong and wait for one with a more mid-century look than what we purchased. But overall, I do enjoy this house. And I don’t need the house of my dreams for my first house, certainly. Despite the work this house sometimes requires, it does make me feel more like we really live here, but taking care of and improving it. And even though I do get a touch of wisfulness when I visit friends with a more modern, or less-work house…what I have is a less than $700 per month mortgage for over 2k sq. feet, which is plenty of room for all of us, and a low payment that is a locked in amount that brings more peace and ease of living than a house with little work to do.
Next week Derek and I are going to Tucson to see my parents, while DLJ stays home. I know he will miss us, but he will have plenty of time for his projects he never has time for while we are around to distract him, like cleaning the garage and maybe finishing the great toolshed he built out back over the past couple weekends. And we will enjoy the desert weather. It has been raining here a lot, as it should this time of year. I appreciate it, and so do my plants that I don’t have to water every day (yet) but a small break of sun will be great for us.
That’s the news. Slow, and happy, pretty much, in our little corner of the Pacific Northwest.

Burnt

Not enough time around for all I want to do. It is no one’s fault, no one to blame, but with various illnesses, and other distractions and time sucks, I’m behind. I am behind on my glass straws. I haven’t updated that blog in weeks. Months. I just goofed on a big order and unless the buyer is nice about it, I will maybe break even. It was my own fault for not looking over an alchemy bid on etsy well enough, and as a result she’s getting a FABULOUS deal unless she is understanding about my mistake.

I love making my glass straws, I just wish I had more time. There is a due date for items to be in a local museum in a few days, and I have nothing new for it. I WANT to give them something NEW…very recent…but I may not have time. I have some good stuff in stock…but…

And then I want time alone. Time to just be. But if I take time to just be, I am not taking time to create. And I miss creating. It’s cold now down in the studio, so creating takes a little forethought to turn the heater on. I think I need to make a “Cave night.” Something a friend of mine has. Something another friend calls “bro-ing in.” I need a night to bro-in.” Or I will go mad. And I must create on that night, not sit and do nothing. The sitting and doing nothing should be daytime, during a Derek nap. Fridays were supposed to be that day…but it never happens. Hm.

So, while I would like a pony, I would also like:

A whole day to myself.

A disk cutter (saving up for that.)

Coffee that hasn’t gotten cold by the time I get to it.

An extra day every week to just be with DLJ.

One more REALLY warm day.

Drinking chocolate.

A chasing hammer.

TIME. MORE, MORE, MORE time.

I have some neat news, but it’s not completely sorted out yet. Soon.

But hey! I have a bead in a magazine! The Winter 2010 edition of <i>Bead Unique</i> has one of my focals in it. I am doing a holiday show Dec. 6 downtown in Portland, and it will be nice to have a newer magazine to display with my work. Oy. I need to finish my brochures! Another thing on the list that never ends….

Age

I picked up a photo of myself last night at around 8 months.

It goes so fast. It just all goes so fast.

Derek has been sleeping pretty well lately, for him. Which is nice. I still have days when I feel a little tethered, because I have so many hours with him until I get time to myself. Sometimes it is hard to see past that moment.

Someone posted in a community on LJ the other day with a quote that I am going to try to remember when I get nutty and want to be free, more than my time that I have.

“We have a few special years with our children, when they’re the ones that want us around. After that you’re going to be running after them for a bit of attention. It’s so fast Peter. It’s a few years, and it’s over. And you are not being careful. And you are missing it.”

I AM being careful. I just have to remember to keep doing so.

That said, Derek had his first time at the local park and rec daycare without me last week. It was just a half hour, to start. We will go back, maybe tomorrow, not sure. I need to start making it regular, and I  have to remember when his gym class is when it starts this  summer. And then soon the awesome girl up the street will be out of school and available to hang out with him here during the week. Between the two, and looking for a really local friend to swap with here and there, he has a good start in time without Mama.  A few hours a week in total, which is all I want for him at this age,  not even 2. But leaving plenty of time for us to play, so I don’t miss it. I don’t know if I could have been so balanced about it when I was younger. I am really glad I had my 20’s free and clear and all about ME and DLJ and the US. If I hadn’t had that, I don’t know if I would be able to do what I feel is the right thing now. There’s something to be said for being a younger Mom, too. Each has checks and balances, I suppose!

derekmomday2

Good news, straggling House of the Moon readers…

I made a change, and now all entries will be written here and go direct to livejournal, which I couldn’t do before. I was writing over there and missing it over here, but now all is perfect, they can comment over there, and readers at lunesse.com can comment there. So, LJ folks, keep on commenting, I DO read them and am still very active in LJ, just starting the flow of entries somewhere else.

This journal has an RSS feed on livejournal, if you are reading this from there, this feed will go away, there’s no point in double dipping the same entry for readers over there. So friend me on LJ if you only are reading the RSS and want to still see what I am up to, as I will disable the rss feed soon.

Yay!

So, what am I up to?

Derek is a growing, sweet boy. He is walking, running, climbing chairs, begging for cheese, and generally being a mostly good sweetheart. He still isn’t the best sleeper, but more nights than not he makes it from 8 pm to 5:30, where I nurse him, and  he then sleeps till 7:30 or so. I am happy with this schedule, and I still enjoy spending quiet early morning hours with him.

It’s loud outside, some guy who owns a tree service seems to be slicing and dicing his own trees through a chipper. Derek and I had a playdate this afternoon, but it is gone, as that boy has a fever. We have not seen them for  literally months, and it sucks. It’s been a rough winter for sick.

I have a show in April that I am working as hard as I can to be ready for, a show I really enjoy doing. It’s at the Convention Center in Portland and it is free, with all sorts of guilds that make handmade things, metal, weaving, ceramics, woodworking…it is at the end of April so I am running out of time!

More later, on the garden, Let’s see if I can find a recent Derek photo to add… LJ readers have seen this one, but going forward,  no more  overlaps!

derektongue

Distracted.

I really should be scanning documents into the computer for sending out in email form, but I really don’t want to. That is so boring. I like editing glass photos instead:

Peach Fizz Necklace

I can hear a train outside, I really like hearing them, especially later at night then this. It’s like when I am at the coast and I can see the fishing boats out on the water late at night, the orange lights glimmering at the horizon. I like that someone else is awake, and will be awake even after I have fallen asleep.

Derek and I went to the zoo today. It was very cold but we still saw many of the animals, the baby elephant has grown a lot but is still small and cute. It moves its legs so fast compared to the adults, less bulk and less length to move.

I haven’t even taken care of the trash and recycling yet. Ok. I have to go do work. I’d really rather play with glass photos. One last trip out to the studio before I shut it down for the night, I snuck an hour in this morning and want to see how the recent work came out. I think another hour or so and I can go sneak a peek.

Back in the Bay Area

DLJ is here for Macworld, Derek and I came along for the ride. We took two days to drive from Portland, stopping overnight in Ashland, OR. Derek did really well for his first real road trip. Much better than I expected. He was a happy guy almost the whole time, and never really had a true crying jag about being stuck in the car so long. We took lots of breaks and let him run around a lot in rest areas.

It is always good to be back here, though I never get to see as many people or do as much as I would like. This will be especially true with Derek with me…still, I can go see parts of the city through his eyes, perhaps.

Anywhere near the BART line, at least! We have the car, too, we could go out to the avenues or the beach.

I doubt anyone local to SF still reads this, but we are here this week if you want to say hi, have the day off or want to meet up for lunch. I know I am meeting up with Halsted, and Mystarion and Ivy, and stopping by my old culinary stomping ground, the restaurant I worked at for a year for free (Palio).

Anyone have any SF kid tips? I never had to know this stuff while here. Derek is 16 months now, so still a little guy.

Trickle

I am around, I really am!

This blog won’t match up with Flickr and let me post photos, which is a real pain. I am not sure why. The test post works, but not the real one. So I don’t post as much here as I love to share photos these days.

Thanksgiving was fun, we went to the coast. We go to Arizona soon, Derek’s first plane trip. I don’t like flying, as many of you know, either he will make this worse (worry about both of us on the plane) or better (too distracted by him to have fright).

I am looking forward to being safe on the ground in Tucson and watching Derek have fun with his grandparents.

I have to get my Father in Law his holiday gift. He is 89. I have no idea what to get him this year!

Any ideas?

Sunny days not here to stay

Today is gorgeous. Just a perfect fall day.

I did some studio work and DLJ is painting our bathroom, it is almost done, finally! We were to go out with friends to pumpkin boat races, but Derek is still sleeping, and the races end in less than an hour, so I don’t think we will make it.

He has been pretty miserable with teething (we think!) the past week. He has been a great sleeper but is having problems recently, I hope that is why and when they push through, he goes back to sleeping better.

I made carmel apples this week.

It is too dang nice to be here at this monitor, so I am fleeing it for now!

Woot, two in a day!

Are you lucky, huh?

I am unwinding from the day, Derek is asleep.
While I was feeding him lunch the doorbell rang, and it was the postman holding my envelope with Holistic Moms flyers…with no stamps on it! Der! He didn’t even tell me what was wrong, I saw it immediately and scuttled off to get stamps. I am glad I was there to answer the door, 20 minutes earlier and I would have been napping along with Derek!

Our pediatrician said he’d put them out in the waiting room and already agreed to come as a speaker for us at our meetings, whatever topic we think would be suited. He also gave me a midwife and and a naturopath as connections to approach to be speakers as well. And hopefully we will have a yoga practitioner as well one time, who teaches prenatal and post natal yoga. So that is a good base to start from in terms of finding folks to come talk at meetings! I am glad to be starting this branch with a co-leader, it makes the work a lot more managed and less daunting.

Today was chilly, the first chilly day so far since summer began, if you don’t count our days at the coast. I just got some new pants and it was a good day to try them out, not a day for shorts! I haven’t bought much new clothing since Derek was born, these were a size smaller than what I was right before I got pregnant and fit with a lot of room, without being too big. I hope to go shopping for clothes in the next week or two, and it’s good to maybe know where to start in terms of sizing. I wish I liked clothes shopping, but I don’t, so I hope to find some things within a decent amount of time before I feel like fleeing the stores. I wasn’t born with that particular gene that seems to settle into the female of the species more often than not.

I am clearly missing touring and the world of Dolby. I keep having touring dreams, that are almost as busy and stressy as the real days on the road could be, but I am always so happy in the dreams to be back in that world. Someday, someday….He’s working hard on his new album and I am really jazzed for him. I miss him, he has been away from the U.S. for over a year now, and after weeks together on the road, it’s so different to have him so far away. At least I know as long as he is there and we are here, when we are ready to check out England, we have at least one place to call home! And since I know Google will pick this up on the Thomas Dolby alert: Hi Thomas! I miss you! And I got those shirts out to the rightful owners! =P

I did not get back in the studio today to start hammering my silver, maybe tomorrow. I always have things I don’t get to that I want, but if I finish most of my goals, it’s a banner day.
Ok, the belly is full of risotto and it’s time for a quick, hot shower and then snuggle into bed with a good book.