I’m going to write more. Now that I can write at ye olde lunesse.com again easily, and have it go to LJ, I should do more than little updates. I used to write so much stuff…

Speaking of that, the server that lunesse.com originally lived on, saturn5, went dark last week after 10+ years of free hosting. I moved lunesse.com itself from that site some time ago, once DLJ and I were together and could get unlimited domains hosted where we park our sites.

All the old stuff was still at saturn5, though, and it was a handy reference. Of course, I have downloaded all my stuff from those old days when I wrote a hell of a lot more stuff, and more interesting stuff than I do know. I used to be so unguarded…why has that changed? I mean, I still write, and at Livejournal my journal is friends only so I know who is reading. It changed before Derek was around. And after DLJ was in my life, but I don’t think that is the reason.

I appreciate privacy more than I used to when I had a webcam trained on me 24-7. Some of it might actually be knowing, and watching Thomas. Every now and then there’s a fan who goes a little south, a little too much entitlement. I was so new at the role of watching over him, as opposed to being with him, when we were on tour, that I didn’t know yet how to watch correctly, in terms of how much, how many, when, when it came to fans and reading his headspace. Towards the end he would tell me when he wanted to be alone when we saw stragglers hanging out by the bus, or on the sidewalk, and I got better along the way of asking him, but watching him need space, made me yearn to need space myself. Of course, no one wants in my space like they do Thomas’, but somehow, protecting and nurturing my space became more important after life on the road, and how crowded we all were together.

And of course, now, with a toddler who actually gets MAD when I sit on the potty, and tries to push me off it, privacy is pretty scarce.

But a blog is no place for privacy. Why have one? :p I mean, unless you really ARE writing for yourself.

Ok, was that enough meta?

I am glad the birds are back in town, Spring is really here. Though I wonder if they wake Derek in the early morning. I doubt it, he can nap through lawnmowers next door. This afternoon I don’t know what we are doing, maybe seeing a friend, I have some sunflower seeds to plant, maybe he and I can do that. I am looking forward to the weekend. I would like the warm weather to come back. Spring is here, but she’s a tease!
Here’s Derek in the bicycle trailer from last weekend with his new helmet.

derekbiketrailer

Brilliant Day

Today was, and still will be, I hope, wonderful.

I spent 2+ hours at a local sauna/spa relaxing, laying around nekkid, sitting in the wet sauna, sweating out toxins, taking showers and splashing with cold water infused with mugwort. It was terrific. Then I went to Powell’s and flipped through a magazine or two before coming home, refreshed. When I have free time, I go to the studio, and it was slowly driving me mad. So today, instead of DLJ and Derek going out, I went out by myself.

Then I came home and did a little work in the studio, and spent the afternoon outside with Derek and DLJ, messing with the garden, and getting the new bike trailer up and running (new inner tubes), and playing with the neighborhood kids up the street.

Now I am making homemade french onion soup, the sun is shining, and I am sure we will all go for an evening walk after dinner. The weather is fabulous, despite being super cold this morning with frost on the deck.

Very, very, VERY good day.

Slllllide?

What a day! I finished getting the gravel down around the beds. I didn’t think I would finish today. We still have more lawn to get rid of, but around the beds are done, and we want to build one more smaller bed to be Derek’s to care for. He helped a lot today, taking small handfuls of gravel out of the wheelbarrow and walking to the gravel area and dropping it down with the rest.

In the afternoon we went swimming and for the first time in months, we went down the waterslide with him. Previously he had been indifferent; NOT TODAY!

He wanted to go over and over, and went at least 7 or 8 times. He was so excited each time it was our turn to climb the stairs, and DLJ said when we came around the final turn Derek always had a huge smile on his face. I was going to dunk him today for the first time, but one of the times he went down the slide with DLJ they went under, and he came up sputtering, but then wanted to go on the slide again, so that counts as his first dunk!

Our Sunday ritual of pizza for dinner is underway in the oven. I hung out with a neighbor who is a gardener and gave him some of the leftover asparagus crowns.

I have to cut out a bunch of bunny buck teeth and eyes tonight after Derek is in bed. We had a nice stroll after dinner around the hood (time lapse finishing this entry.)

Busy week, including picking up cream, milk, and our veggie/fruit box tomorrow. I am going to make butter this week!

Achin’

Ooo.

I just took a shower with Derek AND DLJ. We were all in the garden today, a lot, and we all were dirty!

We got a yard of blended compost/soil/manure to top off our veggie beds and replenish our soil storage tanks for the growing season. Half of it is already in the backyard in the beds, and in one of the large storage containers. Then we got a yard of gravel, and all of it was shoveled out in two trips onto the driveway and now some of it is in the backyard on the beginning of the de-lawning of the veggie garden area. There’s a long way to go and a lot of plant blocker fabric and gravel to spread around, but the beds are ready, I turned them yesterday and today added the new soil and turned it all again to mix it all up.

Tomorrow I will plant, and while I was hoping to have an easy day on Sunday, I should probably do more gravel work, as it is too loud to do when Derek sleeps and not something I can really do well when he is with me in the garden, with all the trips to the driveway with the wheelbarrow.

Dinner is pasta with sauce, veggie and wine. Yum. I hope we all sleep well tonight after so much work!

Space Pod

It’s Friday. This weekend is gardening, maybe swimming, DLJ has a cold and so far I have been lucky, so has Derek. We are still healthy.

I hope to get some studio time, as there is not much time left for me before the show in April, since I get only a couple days a week to be in the studio. Derek is napping, and then we are going to a local coffee house to see our old realtor, she owes me a little money for some web work in the hazy past. Plus, it is just good to see her, and she hasn’t seen Derek in over a year.

Then, of course, BSG tonight. It’s the only show I watch regularly at all, so I guess I will be back to nothin’ for shows after this.

Here’s Space Pod, a big focal.

spacepod

Time is flying, summer is almost over, today it feels like it already is! Derek is asleep in flannel pants, and I am jealous.

But I got some metalsmithing done, sent out some flyers to my pediatrician about the new Holistic Moms group, Portland Branch, that I have helped cofound with a friend. Our first meeting, a free Open House, is Oct. 2 at the Community Center in Beaverton. I hope people show up, but I know new groups can be slow to grow.

I am going to go lay down and rest a bit till the Derek man wakes. He is growing so fast…today he figured out how to raise and lower the curtains in his room, and move the blackout drapes back and forth. Oh lordie.

Here he is Labor Day Weekend at the Oregon Coast Aquarium:

Derek with a brass turtle!

It’s been awhile….

Spring is here.

Derek is 7 months plus and just about ready to crawl. He is army crawling and getting all of his legs up in the air while trying to move forward on his hands and toes.

We went on a two hour walk today to enjoy the warmer weather. He had a good time, I think, we went with 3 other Moms. Tomorrow is play date day. We went swimming today too, so it was quite busy!

I have a glass show at the end of the month at the Convention Center, so I am in the home stretch for that. Of course, I have so little studio time these days, but I should have enough inventory.

DLJ is watching the kung fu channel. It makes me want sake…bad. We have some but it’s late. =)

Alone, but not.

I went outside today and did some weeding. I mowed. I drank tea and read a book.

I’m alone. But not entirely. I am the last pregnant woman I know well, though. My friend Patagonia went into labor today. Her estimated date was two days after mine. I know that soon we will be walking and carrying kids around together, but now I am left to waddle and swim alone during the day. It feels lonely. Having someone to go through pregnancy with was really neat. Even though we didn’t talk about babies ALL the time, being pregnant ALL the time, which was something I found tiresome at gatherings of other pregnant women, it was nice to just have someone there with you going through what you were. Everyone in my birthing classes are done, I had the latest date. So now it’s just me and the kidlet, and I’m hanging out waiting for him to decide it’s time.

And for some reason, it’s lonely.

Or it’s just those hormones. Either way, I am ready to have my body back, and meet this little dude. Meanwhile, I will continue to take walks with DLJ, swim with DLJ on weekends, and try to do things around the house/yard as best I can. I feel pretty good that I am still out there weeding and mowing at 39+ weeks, ish. My date is a little fuzzy.

But it does feel like I am the last one standing.