Emptying out.

I sold the glider chair today. The one I sat in with Derek the first days of his life in the world,all the way up until the day before we put his big boy bed that we built by hand into his room. That was Memorial Day weekend.
It went to a guy for his fiance, they are expecting a little girl. I sent him the links for the Miracle Blanket and Happiest Baby on the Block and wished him well.

*Sniff*

I got the glider used myself, so I ended up breaking even on it.

How they grow. But Derek’s room looks nice, with lots more room with that big chair gone. Still. So many evenings, mornings, late nights…..listening to the guy deliver newspapers at 3:30 AM, when I was up night after night when he was….watching the seasons change from that chair….


Derek in the chair with Gram, just a few days old. Can’t see the chair but… whatever. =)

time. it passes. pay attention.

Lights in the rain

It’s another rainy Sunday here in Oregon. But we will probably put up the holiday lights anyway. Last night we went out to dinner at New Seasons, a local schmancy grocery store, and Derek saw his first holiday lights of the year. He was VERY excited, and kept saying “Who else in this neighborhood has their Christmas lights up?” and “Oh that is so PRETTY!” He is so sweet. I hope we can record him saying these things. Last year what he said was “Can we find more lights?” And the year before that….not much at all since he had very few words…

I am very busy. I am doing a lot of work on Thomas Dolby’s site right now, it is deep in crunch time on that one. And I just started working on a new site, another band called the Shanghai Woolies, a local band that plays hot jazz. And I have lots to do on the website for Derek’s preschool, as that is my volunteer parent job. And of course, the beads, the glass, the straws. Plus being a Mom and a wife. Busy! Very busy. I need things to settle down, but I am not sure when that will happen. The immediate crush should slow in a few days and not be so hectic.

I’m still in my pajamas. It’s been a nice, long week of DLJ being home. We were going to go to LA for Thanksgiving but it was canceled at the 11th hour, my MIL was very sick and didn’t want us to come. So we went to the coast instead. It was nice, we had two days that were cloudy, but also partly clear, with no rain, so Derek got some beach time in, we went to the Oregon Aquarium on Thanksgiving Day, which was a GREAT day to go. There were less than 200 people wandering the whole place, it was like it was rented out for a private party or something in terms of our freedom to roam around and see very few other people.

While life is very busy right now, I am grateful for the busy. It means I have work to do, art to do, ways to help friends with their work, and a great family to be a part of.

Busy Friday

My stomach hurts. I need to nap.

So this is shorter than I wanted.

I got my first set of needles today for knitting, that are my own. I am going to try to make Derek a simple scarf for my first project. But I have to remember how to cast on, I may try tonight. My friend who taught me the beginnings of knitting helped me today to pick out my yarn and my needles and is up for a refresher one evening next week.

Too short, sorry. Must rest.

Dripping…

after a shower, sprawled out on the bed. It has been a lovely weekend, fabulous weather, lots of water, fun, popsicles and lounging around.

And the riding of scooters.

He is holding a little plastic hook from our baker's rack in the house

He is holding a little plastic hook from our baker's rack in the house

My kiln needed a part and we installed it, but it still has a heating issue. I have one more thing to try, then I just don’t know. I don’t want to buy a  new one, but I will if I have to. I need that kiln NOW for a show in a couple weeks. That’s the only bummer this weekend.

Ok, off to read some NewDream.org and relax. Derek is napping very late today…which is not the greatest, but it makes for a nice late afternoon siesta for Momma.

Also, Momma’s Morning Out alone yesterday was just fab. I have a new Alone Time place. I am definitely going back. Way better than Jade Sauna.

I’m going to write more. Now that I can write at ye olde lunesse.com again easily, and have it go to LJ, I should do more than little updates. I used to write so much stuff…

Speaking of that, the server that lunesse.com originally lived on, saturn5, went dark last week after 10+ years of free hosting. I moved lunesse.com itself from that site some time ago, once DLJ and I were together and could get unlimited domains hosted where we park our sites.

All the old stuff was still at saturn5, though, and it was a handy reference. Of course, I have downloaded all my stuff from those old days when I wrote a hell of a lot more stuff, and more interesting stuff than I do know. I used to be so unguarded…why has that changed? I mean, I still write, and at Livejournal my journal is friends only so I know who is reading. It changed before Derek was around. And after DLJ was in my life, but I don’t think that is the reason.

I appreciate privacy more than I used to when I had a webcam trained on me 24-7. Some of it might actually be knowing, and watching Thomas. Every now and then there’s a fan who goes a little south, a little too much entitlement. I was so new at the role of watching over him, as opposed to being with him, when we were on tour, that I didn’t know yet how to watch correctly, in terms of how much, how many, when, when it came to fans and reading his headspace. Towards the end he would tell me when he wanted to be alone when we saw stragglers hanging out by the bus, or on the sidewalk, and I got better along the way of asking him, but watching him need space, made me yearn to need space myself. Of course, no one wants in my space like they do Thomas’, but somehow, protecting and nurturing my space became more important after life on the road, and how crowded we all were together.

And of course, now, with a toddler who actually gets MAD when I sit on the potty, and tries to push me off it, privacy is pretty scarce.

But a blog is no place for privacy. Why have one? :p I mean, unless you really ARE writing for yourself.

Ok, was that enough meta?

I am glad the birds are back in town, Spring is really here. Though I wonder if they wake Derek in the early morning. I doubt it, he can nap through lawnmowers next door. This afternoon I don’t know what we are doing, maybe seeing a friend, I have some sunflower seeds to plant, maybe he and I can do that. I am looking forward to the weekend. I would like the warm weather to come back. Spring is here, but she’s a tease!
Here’s Derek in the bicycle trailer from last weekend with his new helmet.

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Brilliant Day

Today was, and still will be, I hope, wonderful.

I spent 2+ hours at a local sauna/spa relaxing, laying around nekkid, sitting in the wet sauna, sweating out toxins, taking showers and splashing with cold water infused with mugwort. It was terrific. Then I went to Powell’s and flipped through a magazine or two before coming home, refreshed. When I have free time, I go to the studio, and it was slowly driving me mad. So today, instead of DLJ and Derek going out, I went out by myself.

Then I came home and did a little work in the studio, and spent the afternoon outside with Derek and DLJ, messing with the garden, and getting the new bike trailer up and running (new inner tubes), and playing with the neighborhood kids up the street.

Now I am making homemade french onion soup, the sun is shining, and I am sure we will all go for an evening walk after dinner. The weather is fabulous, despite being super cold this morning with frost on the deck.

Very, very, VERY good day.

Slllllide?

What a day! I finished getting the gravel down around the beds. I didn’t think I would finish today. We still have more lawn to get rid of, but around the beds are done, and we want to build one more smaller bed to be Derek’s to care for. He helped a lot today, taking small handfuls of gravel out of the wheelbarrow and walking to the gravel area and dropping it down with the rest.

In the afternoon we went swimming and for the first time in months, we went down the waterslide with him. Previously he had been indifferent; NOT TODAY!

He wanted to go over and over, and went at least 7 or 8 times. He was so excited each time it was our turn to climb the stairs, and DLJ said when we came around the final turn Derek always had a huge smile on his face. I was going to dunk him today for the first time, but one of the times he went down the slide with DLJ they went under, and he came up sputtering, but then wanted to go on the slide again, so that counts as his first dunk!

Our Sunday ritual of pizza for dinner is underway in the oven. I hung out with a neighbor who is a gardener and gave him some of the leftover asparagus crowns.

I have to cut out a bunch of bunny buck teeth and eyes tonight after Derek is in bed. We had a nice stroll after dinner around the hood (time lapse finishing this entry.)

Busy week, including picking up cream, milk, and our veggie/fruit box tomorrow. I am going to make butter this week!

Good news, straggling House of the Moon readers…

I made a change, and now all entries will be written here and go direct to livejournal, which I couldn’t do before. I was writing over there and missing it over here, but now all is perfect, they can comment over there, and readers at lunesse.com can comment there. So, LJ folks, keep on commenting, I DO read them and am still very active in LJ, just starting the flow of entries somewhere else.

This journal has an RSS feed on livejournal, if you are reading this from there, this feed will go away, there’s no point in double dipping the same entry for readers over there. So friend me on LJ if you only are reading the RSS and want to still see what I am up to, as I will disable the rss feed soon.

Yay!

So, what am I up to?

Derek is a growing, sweet boy. He is walking, running, climbing chairs, begging for cheese, and generally being a mostly good sweetheart. He still isn’t the best sleeper, but more nights than not he makes it from 8 pm to 5:30, where I nurse him, and  he then sleeps till 7:30 or so. I am happy with this schedule, and I still enjoy spending quiet early morning hours with him.

It’s loud outside, some guy who owns a tree service seems to be slicing and dicing his own trees through a chipper. Derek and I had a playdate this afternoon, but it is gone, as that boy has a fever. We have not seen them for  literally months, and it sucks. It’s been a rough winter for sick.

I have a show in April that I am working as hard as I can to be ready for, a show I really enjoy doing. It’s at the Convention Center in Portland and it is free, with all sorts of guilds that make handmade things, metal, weaving, ceramics, woodworking…it is at the end of April so I am running out of time!

More later, on the garden, Let’s see if I can find a recent Derek photo to add… LJ readers have seen this one, but going forward,  no more  overlaps!

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